Feel the Power.

Yesterday I was watching these videos:
http://www.increaseyourchances.org/#
-HILARIOUS, and they pretty much encapsulate every conversation or argument Husbear and I have had since starting TTC. I decided to actually look and see how close a fertility specialist was to us way out here in the sticks.
I saw that there was one about an hour and a half away, and started looking around on their website. They had a contact form, so I submitted an email just kind of stating that we've been actively trying for 8 months and nothing has happened yet, and we just moved here and don't have a doctor or an OB here or anything and we're feeling sort of lost and need some advice. Exhale.
The doctor wrote me an email back saying to call his assistant to set up an appointment with him to talk, and then his assistant called me.
She was AMAZING. She answered all of my questions thoroughly and was so sweet and helpful. And she told me that the doctor, who usually practices in Florida, comes to that office in Virginia once or twice a month, and he would love to consult with me THIS FRIDAY. I got all of the details and talked to my mother-in-law about what she thinks, and she said GO!
I had to talk it over with Husbear first, and his initial reaction was... not positive. He thinks it's too soon, (because it hasn't been a year yet, and in his mind we didn't "do it right" until the last couple months- uh, dude...were you present in health class? unless there's something he wasn't telling me, we were doing it RIGHT) and told me that he thinks the stress I put myself through every day is what's actually keeping us from getting pregnant. I cried, we yelled, it was bad. But he finally acknowledged that maybe if I saw a doctor, the stress would be eased and I would feel better.
He also called his brother, a doctor who just went through 2 years of ttc, and his brother said something along the lines of "Even if it is all in her head [SERIOUSLY GUYS, JUST SHUT UP.], that doesn't change the fact that she's still not pregnant. And she has billions of years of evolution occuring in her body right now- her body was made to have kids since the beginning of time. That is one trait that never went away- women want kids. You think we want kids badly, try being them- we'll NEVER understand how strongly they feel this. So let her go, if she think it will ease her mind." Husbear told me he hadn't ever looked at it that way, and it helped him try to understand. WHEW.
Husbear also said "You know, if my whole life I was afraid of having a heart attack, I wouldn't go to a cardiologist to make myself feel better." ....um, I would. That's when I said, "I love you honey, but I think you're the crazy one. That's the first place I'd go." Just goes to show how different we are, I guess.
I honestly think all I need is to hear from a doctor that everything is fine and it IS all in my head. And if it's not, then I'm one step closer to getting "it" fixed.
But when I gave a very basic rundown of my medical history and my extremely reliable cycles, he said most likely, if there is an issue, that it would be a very easy fix.
So, I go in for my consult on Friday- that includes a vaginal sonogram to check for cysts or polyps, and he'll give me an order form for an S/A for Husbear that he can use at the lab here in town (instead of driving all the way back to VA) to get tested.
I'm starting to feel a little less powerless, and that is a powerful feeling.